New Updates with not much HappeningSSS

Not much I have done since my last post.. I went back to Serkat again to continue the extension of the chilli plant and also as a plumber helping out my dad to lengthen the pipe to the back of my uncle's house so that it would be easier to water the plants with out running in and out and not wet the kitchen area..

Spent 4 days there from Friday afternoon until Monday afternoon.. 6th to 9th February.. As usual the simple life as a Kampong Boy, how I wish I can spend more time there or living as a farmer.. That's the weird me, love living as simple as possible hate sophisticated urban life with hectic and problems around 24/7..

I did feel the pressure for being jobless, almost a year soon since my previous permanent job, THANK GOD I worked part-time in between.. A coming 28 years old guy with no accomplishment or goals achieved, I feel damned down.. Having pressure stucked at home with my dad, who always have something up his sleeves doing some upgrade projects at home and kampong, he will feel restless each day with nothing to do.. He worked 2 to 3 days per week.. Earning a peanut pay to keep a family of 7 including my grandma alive and surviving..

I did feel bad as I used to bring back around $1200 and gave a few hundreds for my parents to pay the house utility bills.. I even transfered ownership of the house phone to my name.. Thank god so far the house telephone, internet and my mobile bills I still managed to pay on my own with the savings I had and going to dry up soon..

I was frustrated with all the job interviews I went since last year and up to January this year.. Starting from Great Eastern as an admin post, SBS transit as a customer service officer and the last was POPULAR.. I managed to nail for a second interview but seems my lucky star had dimmed.. So my last alternative was to go an agency but then the post designated for me just required 'O' level cert and the pay was a little pathetic for a DIPLOMA holder which used to have a basic salary of $1600..

I had no choice but to accept my fate now that the recession caused misery to many others and not only myself.. The agency did look out for an IT post but no response as most companies wanted at least 2 years experience while I only had a year.. If I calculated correctly this Friday will be the day the agency will call me up to confirmed that LTA has accepted my and my declaration has been cleared.. Cross my fingers tightly, hoping my life will be better and a brighter future awaits for me..

I do have regrets with some decisions I made in life such as career, love and friends.. I don't know if my family will have better life if I did not survive the critical moment in my life lying 1.5 month in the hospital in Oct to Nov 2007.. I lost 3 weeks of my memory and until now I really don't know who or what had saved me.. The night before I woke up, I mentioned to my parents, do they see me walking in yellow glowing and going to save me while I was helplessly lying on the hospital bed.. The next morning I woke up, the first thing I questioned my mum how long I was in the hospital and she replied its was about 3 weeks...

I was shocked and curious what had I been doing for the 3 weeks as I can't remembered anything.. I kept questioning my parents did I talk to them and others during the 3 weeks and they said yes, I was able to recognise everyone and even have conversation with them, the doctors and friends.. WoW, really surprising I can't recalled any of the details.. But its a miracle I survived without any side effects of my prolong high fever for a month as the first thing the doctor mentioned I would get stroke the moment I awake.. Miracle, really a miracle..

I have lost my looks and self confidence resulted by the severe chicken pox.. I was roasted and now living with some permanent scars and also uneven skin tone.. I don't know if I should be glad as I am alive but then I was depressed with obstacles I have been through since young, I was a premature baby and I believe all these happenings are the side effects.. To me, I am special..

Here for now.. will update some more soon maybe the hurdles I have been through in life as a SPECIAL guy chosen by GOD to taste the sufferings in this WORLD which is only a temporary place for MUSLIMS.. Roger and out..